The last time I wear some of my clothes…

A day in my life Crohn's Disease

The last time I wear some of my clothes…

The countdown has started at my house… it’s a month until I have my big operation. I had put it all to the back of my mind and was in denial. I got through Christmas, and some holidays and lots of other activities. But it’s getting real now. Kids are back at school next week and I am seeing the future much more clearly now. To be honest, I’m a bit nervous!

Yesterday I was looking for something to wear in my closet and it dawned on me “it’ll probably be the last time I wear this.” It was a long skinny dress which was slim fitting. Then I started flicking through other clothes and thought, yep looks like I’ll be donating quite a few items, never to be worn again. That’s a bummer! I am quite aware that is just one minor thing to worry about it life, but still, I guess it’s just the fact I will be making adjustments and doing things differently in a month.

I am also worried about how long I will be down and out. I really have no idea. I think hospital will be 7-10 days and that’s based on the operation the doctor thinks he’s doing. He did say “I am pretty sure, but sometimes you just don’t know until you get in there.” Hmmmm…… Then I will have recovery at home. I am grateful I have my Mum and my husband to help out. Plus the boys are old enough to look after themselves.

I feel a ‘nesting’ thing coming over me. Where I need to start a culling and cleaning frenzy. It will possess my body next week I’m sure haha. I’ll be cleaning out every cupboard in sight!

Plus organising my work stuff, and money… it’s stressful! I am such a creature of habit and like things to be the same. I am so obsessed with habits that I am the kind of person who could eat exactly the same thing every single day for the rest of my life and never be upset about it. I hate the unknown.

But in a way I am looking forward to it. I just need to be on the other side of it. My family and my friends are going camping this weekend and I’m not going. I am sick of missing out of those small little things. I am looking forward to not needing the toilet anymore, so I keep reminding myself of that. Onwards we go…

♥ KC.

About the author
Lover of interior design, indoor plants, essential oils, low tox cleaning. Living with Crohn’s disease & colostomy bag. Mum to 3 boys.

68 Comments

  1. You are so inspiring and an amazing woman. I admire your courage and honesty. Once the worst is over and you are out the other side, I hope your ‘new normal’ provides a much better life. Good luck Katrina x

  2. There are lots of changes to your life, clothes is one of them.. it’s a natural thought.. this operation isn’t a cure but can be a better way of living with this cruel disease.. nearly two years for my son now 12, and we are still learning tips and tricks..still on the roller coaster..
    Best wish, don’t rush the recovery..xx

  3. I nursed my Mum last year after her getting a stoma and urostomy bags with glitches along the way but mastered it. Please take all the help you can and join a support group which also helps. Thinking of you and wishing you a speedy recovery. X

  4. Katrina Chambers I was just talking to a friend and mentioned your surgery must be very close.
    Nervous, I’m sure you are and deservedly should be, your making a huge life changing decision, you need these moments to get yourself in a mind space to take on this next chapter of what’s been a big story in your life.
    I’m so proud of you and your ability to have kept soldiering on and your next journey of big courageousness … Life changing and I wish with all my heart this next unknown chapter is one that frees you and gives you better lifestyle choices daily. You deserve it.
    I hate change.. I used to love it now I too love predictability this came after I had too many losses but some changes and unknowns lead to beautiful things.
    Sending you lots of love from the sidelines treens xx

  5. Wishing you the very best Katrina
    I’m like you I don’t like the unknown
    I fret about it and then afterwards I’m like what a waste of emotions !!
    You will be much happier not to far down the track with your new freedom

  6. I don’t know you Katrina but I follow you as I love your decorating tips and also because you “keep it real”. Wishing you all the best for your surgery. You have been very brave sharing your Crohn’s journey and I am sure that has helped many other people. Be kind to yourself during the recovery and let that lovely family of yours look after you. Best wishes, Val

  7. You have been on my mind … wanting things to go very well for you but as I know following my mouth surgery you never know “exactly” how it is until after…. holding you in my thoughts xxx

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